I Miss You, Nanay, Kenneth and Tatay

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we're finally here in cebu. we flew out here on august 24th. and it's only now that i decided to blog about it.

i cried almost the whole night before we flew out here. the thought of not seeing my nanay, my bro, and heck even my tatay, everyday really hit me hard. i had doubts and questions running through my mind. at that very instance, i wanted time to pass by quickly so i wouldn't have to feel the pain of saying goodbye to them.

i know it's okay for mai to just stay and work there in manila. she said she already got used to being far away from her family. she doesn't wanna see me so down and hurt coz i'll be separated from my family for the very first time in my whole life. but i know i'll be okay... that we need to do this.

when my family, mai and i said our goodbyes at the airport, there was no crying. i did all my best to hold my tears. i wanna be strong, for my nanay. i know how hard it is for her to see me leave, for me to be far away from her. she even said, "sana sampu na lang anak ko para mawala man ang isa, meron pa maiiwan na kasama ko." mai even told her mama this and they were both teary-eyed. sobrang sakit. i told my nanay not to worry too much about me, that i'm just a plane, call or text away. i also told her not think of all this as me abandoning her. i will NEVER do that to her coz i can't. i love her too much.





my bro wasn't able to hold his tears the day before we left. i was chatting with him in his room and i thought he was just kidding around. then, he just covered his face coz he doesn't want me to see him cry. *sigh* i miss him terribly.

my tatay... this was actually a surprise. we've been doing our best (or worst for this matter) to avoid showing any care or concern towards each other. i don't even wanna remember the story behind that. anyway, and on that day, the 24th of august, we said "i love you" to each other for the very FIRST time in our lives. he said it first, actually, through text. i was too proud to say it first.

kung kelan ako lalayo sa kanila, saka pa kami nagkaroon ng bonding moments.

so, here we are. bums for now. we're still adjusting to living here. we got used to our room, where the AC's always on so we barely sweat. here, the only thing that cools us off is an electric fan and opened windows. but mai's parents are planning on buying us our own AC so it won't be hard for us to sleep in the morning when we start working.

we've been here for 2 weeks now and i'm still adjusting. there's almost never a night that i didn't think of my family and almost cry myself to sleep. i always pray for them to be safe and okay. i miss them so much. i miss a lot of things about my family and our home.

i miss my nanay's kare-kare. mai misses that too coz her mama's way of cooking it is different. no peanut butter in it.

i miss seeing my nanay dance every morning when she wakes up or everytime she hears a danceable tune. she's makulet like that.

i miss hearing my bro sing his heart out every weekend almost. sinosolo nya ang videoke.

me and mai bought a new showerhead for the upstairs bathroom. i thought of tatay coz i know that if he was just around, he'll fix that showerhead for us. no need to hire someone to do the dirty work.

i miss our chikahan with my bro, kenneth. and also nanay's complaints about her work. i do, really.

sobrang naiiyak na ko dito but i just miss them. i'm okay.

mai's family has been very nice to me. i consider them as my extended family so i just have a few adjustments with them. for instance, i still can't understand everything they say. so whenever they tell a funny story, i look like a snob or stuckup coz i don't laugh or even react to what they're saying. i don't want to ask mai to translate everytime coz i'm doing my best to understand what they're saying but it's really hard. but i know i'll get used to it and i'll soon understand them well enough to laugh at their funny stories. (cross fingers)

i only wish that soon, me and mai won't have to be away from our families just to be together. i want our families to really know each other coz me and mai will be together forever.

my only regrets now is i didn't really spend time bonding with my family. i know it's not too late yet. when they come here to visit, i'll use that time with them wisely. i'll show them how much i miss them.

i hope everything works out well here in cebu. i hope...

i don't have photoshop installed here yet so i'll post our pictures next time.