Just last Wednesday...

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Just last Wednesday, I felt like I'm on top of the world.
I've never felt that satisfied with what I've accomplished in life.

Just last Wednesday, I felt like I have control over my life.
Things seem to be going my way... with my job, with my lovelife, with my personal and family life.

How quickly things changed... I lost grip of the wheel and my life is now steering to the wrong direction.

I can't blame anyone. I can't blame Him either.
I guess things meant to happen this way for a reason...
a reason I haven't found out yet...
and I'm not even sure if I'm ready to know what it is.

That's how I've lived my life... when things go sour, I always try to be as positive as I can.
I start psyching myself to think that there's always a good reason behind everything.
So far, all the reasons, all the alternative paths, seem to make sense.
And so I willingly accept them... thinking that He has a better path for me.

Just last Wednesday, I had all that optimism... never tarnished by all the bad experiences I went through.
This time, my mind doesn't want to believe there's a good reason for all these to happen.
Scratch that. My mind doesn't want to ACCEPT there can be a good reason behind all these.
No, please, don't let that happen. I'm begging you.

I'm praying he'll be okay.
I'm praying my family can get through this.

I'm still shocked. I'm confused. I'm scared.

This, too, shall pass.



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